2012

So, I didn't do a great job of keeping this updated.. However, I've noticed I still need some sort of outlet for the amount of thoughts, feelings, ideas, and questions I have. I will update this as often as I have time.

I've been debating how I've been going to do this for a long time. Whether I would just tell a few people, post a note on facebook, casually mention in conversations, or write something like this. I think I've combined all of them. That being said, what better time to tell everyone who wants to hear(read) than on New Years? These past 8 months or so, I've been in a very challenging, very trying season of my life. Without going into a whole lot of detail, I've felt burnt out, used up, tired, alone; often searching, wondering, and seeking. But, through it all, I've realized I have all that I need. I have what it takes to make it through every trial, every downfall, every mess up, every lonely night, and every storm. What I'm about to say isn't a resolution of what I want to do in 2012, it's a lifestyle I've embraced for as long as I'm here.It's time to step it up. I'm not wasting anymore of my life focusing on ME. I refuse to settle for a mediocre Christian life. If you call yourself a believer, you're called to more than a mediocre Christian life. I'm tired of seeing so many people that are going through the same things I've been through but have no Hope, no Love, and no Direction. They have no idea there is a God who gives them Hope,  Loves them unconditionally, and shows them Direction in every aspect of their life. There is a dying world out there and I just ignore it. I embrace a burden for the lost! You see, I don't want to settle for anything less than what God has for me. Everything I've gone though, all the people I come in contact with, everything about my life is what God is using to stretch me and to show me his will for my life. I've completely surrendered everything to Him. Relationships, school, work, money, EVERYTHING is in his control! I don't have to worry anymore. Because I know I have put my complete hope, trust, and security in Him. Whatever happens in my life is God moving in my life.
I embrace the life God has planned out for me!